day102 - so sleepy
dear luci,
I lay down at the end of each day to write and I feel my eyelids begin to droop. I notice my breathing and my heart rate slow. I close my eyes for a few seconds and when I open them, my phone has fallen out of my hand, and ten minutes have passed before I felt the fog consume me.
it's hard being chronically ill and maintaining a job and a life. my tiredness catches up with me so easily. I feel the profound urge to drift off. Not yet, you need to finish this. You need to go hang the washing up. You need to read some comics before you pass out in the middle of an issue.
I had a weird day today. Started fine, got worse as I slammed my head against the metal pipe that is feeling self-assured in your tech job. Talk of COINTELPRO conspiracy theories, grandparents, and small but meaningful phrases eased my mind.
I saw a friend I haven't seen in a little over a month.
I'm tired again.
sweet dreams Luci