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day126 - it was never just casual

it was never just casual
but we probably thought it was
at least for a bit
but certainly not after
we exchanged i love you's
i read your favourite books
and you read every entry in my blog

the first time someone called me your "girlfriend", albeit mistakenly
and every time I posted you on my story.

i'm afraid it was deadly serious
but it never felt so grave because
every moment was easy
with you

we imagined a future for all four of us
it was perfect

the first night i lay next to you
your heart was racing, pounding
i made some witty comment and you
blushed
but mine was too

"it feels so much like a dream" one of us said,
"I hope I never wake up from it".

no, i don't think it was ever just casual.

"casual" doesn't make your legs weak
your stomach drop
"casual" doesn't burn the back of your throat with the words you can't say

too bad.
i'll carry it all with me everywhere i go.
don't want to let go
i'm always yours
always will be

not casual, soulmate
love of my life




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