day62 - headache
dear luci,
this evening I have the kind of headache that makes you feel like you're wading through molasses just to formulate a basic thought. I don't even know what molasses is, I'm just familiar with the texture and consistency via the idiom and also the Great Molasses Flood which took 21 lives and injured 150 people. Can you imagine something that viscous managing to flood through the streets at 51km/h?
as you might have noticed, the headache has also spurred on a wave of delirium, perhaps not unlike the wave of delicious and vitamin-rich molasses which swept through the North End neighbourhood of Boston, Massachusetts on January 15th 1919. Tell me I'm wrong but I think that's maybe close to when the hit album by Panic at the Disco, "Death of a Bachelor" released. I remember cause it was close to when my first (like, my first ever) cousin was born that year. The date just sounds familiar.
This kind of delirium has led me, like a sick horse to water, to text messages such as:
"I'm thinking like who could really match our swag and there are almost no results"
so you know it's going well.
Serious hat for a second. I've been burning the candle at both ends. When I go to work, I sit at my desk and scream on the inside because I feel like I don't understand the most fundamental things about the systems I'm working with. I have resolved to fix this through the pursuit of knowledge, but I've had no time nor energy to do that. I've been googling, looking through Reddit threads, trying to figure out if there's some kind of book that will just explain the things I need to know. But for every "this book changed my life" you get two "don't bother"'s.
I feel like I don't have time to learn, that's mostly my fault for prioritising social stuff. I could fall asleep right now, it would be so easy.
I don't have time for creative things either. I'm gonna need to make some, I have a short film to re-edit. I have things I wanna do.
does Luna dream of electric sheep? apparently. I dozed off and had some wacky fuckin visions. I'm missing the point and I need to just let myself rest.
sweet dreams Luci <3